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In a “me” centered world, it would make sense that God would speak through my feelings… When I’m on the right track I’d feel good and confident and warm and bubbly; when I am on the wrong track I would feel tired and disappointed and struggle. In a “me” centered world this would be the only way that made sense. It wouldn’t make sense for me to ever feel “bad” when I’m going in the right direction, and it wouldn’t make sense for God to ask me to do something I really don’t want to do: “God why did you make me this way if you are only going to ask me to do THAT? Why not make me in such a way so that I’d want to do THAT, rather than run from it?” Yes, if the world revolved around me then this could be the only kind of logic I would need.
But in a world that does NOT revolve around me: a world in which I am a sinner…who chooses wrong things sometimes, fails sometimes, is faithless sometimes — but in which God is faithful, and He is the center, and His will is perfect (though my will is flawed)… in a world like THAT, my feelings could sometimes be wrong. A day that I felt awful and depressed could be the day God showed His love to me the MOST: by waking me up from my self centeredness, and showing me my flaws in a way that I could not deny. So my feelings are not “Jesus”, but the good news is when we take up the cross Jesus wants us to take, when we give up trying to feel good, and start trying to follow God, we actually experience JOY. Freedom. Peace. Purpose.
In other words, when we try to find joy, freedom, peace, and purpose we go down the wrong path… No one ever found real happiness by seeking happiness. Anyone who has any measure of real happiness found it while seeking something else, something greater. And when we try to follow Jesus instead, we find all the things we’d given up looking for.